peel me like an onion
heavy on the layers
I shed the outer skin
as I go to You in prayer
crying as I’m sliced up
a little more, I’m diced up
I’m ready for the next plan
dump me in the pan
straight into the fryer
turn the heat up higher
cook me till I’m done
I’m in refiner’s fire
the hotter I’m becoming
the more clearly I can see
molting all these layers
leads me to transparency
Tears welled in my eyes as I sliced the onion in half. I broke through that top layer of skin, and the tears freely flowed down my face. Onions have a funny way of doing that to me.
I tossed them into the hot frying pan to sauté them. They sizzled as I stirred them back and forth. I was no longer tearing up, but noticed the sweetness of the aroma. After they had been sautéd, their translucency was striking.
Isn’t it something that an onion could be so drastically different in appearance, in taste, aroma, and in sight- after experiencing a little bit of “heat”? Honestly, I don’t like being uncomfortable. That’s why we all like comfort food, right? It makes us feel good. But it’s only an emotional reaction- not the real thing.
For my entire life, I have used food for reward, punishment, pleasure, and emotional comfort.
I’m tired of being comfortable. I want to be all God wants me to be- and I really do believe that He wants me to be free from this ridiculous food obsession.
I woke up this morning, ready to cook some eggs, and I tried to tell myself that it was what I really wanted for breakfast. Not true. I really just wanted a ginormous bowl of oatmeal. But more than oatmeal, I want to break that chain…the never ending cycle of obsessing over food and using food for comfort.
And the only answer is more Jesus. And less self-gratification.
Less of me (literally and figuratively)…more of Him.
I’ve jumped into the frying pan with both feet, I’m feeling the heat, and I’m ready to be changed!
God- make me uncomfortable so I find comfort in YOU not FOOD!
eat to live, not live to eat
There is power in His Name to break every chain!
Always be joyful. Never stop praying- 1 Thessalonians 5:16-17