sometimes I want to stay inside
and hide behind closed doors
pull the covers up over my head
and not deal with the world anymore
on certain days, I cannot think
and words have no rhyme or reason
I can’t seem to remember anything
and no- I’m not even teasing!!
but it’s when we’re feeling most useless
that His light comes shining through
when we share the moments of brokenness
is when we hear “me, too!”
When I am a little grumpy, I joke that I am “not fit for human consumption”. There are some days when I just don’t feel like myself. I can’t put a finger on why, and no matter what I do- sometimes I can’t shake that “off” feeling.
I was around a bunch of people this past week, and you know how others will ask you how you are doing? Sometimes we’ll say something generic- like “I’m doing good!”… when we’re really not? I had a few days like that this past week. Usually when I am feeling this way, I do everything I can to stay away from people. I don’t even like to be around myself when I feel this way. So why would anyone else want to be around me?!
But every time we are with others is another opportunity for Him to work through us and to use others to speak to us.
I opened up and told someone that I was having an “off” day, and I found instant connection. They, too, were experiencing something similar. It helps when we can be transparent about our struggles, no matter how big or small they may be- and to know that there is nothing we have gone through that someone else has not experienced!
Sometimes we have to just keep running the race. Even when we don’t feel up to the task. When we feel less than qualified, it’s an even greater opportunity to lean on the Lord and draw upon His grace and His strength to do what we have to do.
His pleasure is not in the strength of the horse,
nor his delight in the legs of the warrior;
the Lord delights in those who fear him,
who put their hope in his unfailing love. Psalm 147
He doesn’t delight in our strength, but in our desire to fully rely on Him!
Here’s a video that was shared around Facebook recently… watch it and be encouraged that we have a Savior who knows our struggles and we are not alone in our journey!