I catch myself
over and over again
holding on to my anger, my judgement,
keeping score, putting up a fight
but I’m desperately trying to do what’s right
so take it all till all that’s left
is only love
take it all till all that’s left
is only love
love keeps no records of wrongs-
so You say
but the pain is so strong
sometimes I pray
for the memories to fade away
until all thats left
sometimes I look in the mirror
and I see
my old self staring back at me
but how can I begin
to love someone else
if I can’t even love myself?
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
1 Corinthians 13
I wrote this song recently as I thought about what it means to really love unconditionally. I am as guilty as anyone for hanging onto the past and allowing it to color the way I see people. It is so hard to let go of past hurts and rejections- and even harder to truly love someone unconditionally when we still harbor those feelings.
My prayer is for Him to help me continue to let go and to see others- including myself– the way He sees us.
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8