when every beam of light goes dim
trust that you can rest in Him
His light shines in darkness
when you cry out but not a word
escapes your mouth- you still are heard
His ears hear in darkness
when all that’s left to do is wait
In Him joy comes, His love is great
His voice speaks in darkness
Recently, I took the girls out shopping so they could find a birthday present for a friend. You go to the toy section, I’ll be in electronics– I told them.
I remember how desperately I wanted to feel close to God, and how far away He seemed.
I was hoping to find a new worship CD to listen to in the car on the way home. He so often speaks to me through music, and I searched and searched…but the CD selection in this store was dismal. I couldn’t find a single one. I went to find the girls, we made our gift purchase, and I pushed the thought of finding new music out of my mind.
And then just days later- after our Sunday service, a wonderful lady who loves the Lord came up to me as I was walking out to my van. Here- someone gave me these, and I thought you’d like to have them. She handed me a gift bag with several CD’s in them.
I dropped my husband off at work the other morning, and as I looked down in my van, I saw that same gift bag that had been handed to me days before. I had forgotten about it, but felt compelled to look inside on this particular morning. I grabbed a cd out of the bag and popped it into my cd player. The first words I heard were these-
I’m here to meet with you
come and meet with me
I’m here to find you
reveal yourself to me
As I wait, you make me strong
As I long, draw me to your arms
As I stand and sing your praise
You come, you come and you fill this place
Won’t you come, Won’t you come and fill this place
As I listened, God revealed Himself to me. I cried tears of joy as I remembered the week I had before and how far away God had seemed to me. In that moment as I listened to the CD, He brought to mind the day I wandered through that store- searching for music, wanting so desperately to be near Him…and then the picture of the lady from our church came to mind- how she smiled and hugged me so tightly as she handed me a bag full of CD’s…
God is faithful. Even when I can’t see or feel Him. He filled my van with His presence that day. He breathed life into these dry bones again. He filled me with joy.
I am thankful 🙂
Weeping may last through the night,
but joy comes with the morning…Psalm 30:5