In search of solitude
and to myself I softly
the talking soon becomes
and then I hum it
I was compelled the other day to stop and walk on the trail. There was a green glow about the trees, and the birds serenaded me as I began to walk.
As I walked, I realized another victory He has given me! For years, I have been in bondage… a “slave” to numbers- numbers on the scale, the number of calories I consume at each meal, or the number of calories I burn while exercising. I would track them on my cute little phone app all day long. I was a slave to that app. And then there were days when I would take a break from tracking the numbers- and yet I would STILL keep a running tally in my brain.
But since Dec 31, I have stopped “counting”. Cold turkey. This was one of the things I had prayed to be free from, and praise the Lord I am finally FREE!
So as I walked, I realized that I wasn’t clutching my phone…and I wasn’t trying to beat my best walking time…and I hadn’t set a goal for distance or calories burned. I was just walking to walk, and it was wonderful!
I no longer need the validation of a magical number to find my self-worth.
I have Him and He is all that I need.
let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. Hebrews 12